Such a joy to be waiting to be this guys wife. Even though I have no idea what that will be like. We have had so much fun being engaged and we hope we don’t miss it. Incredibly blessed that so many of our friends are getting married and going through this with us. [[Photo by Miranda Renee Photography]]
Well blog, it is 100 days until I am wed. Whoa! And right now I still can’t imagine life as a wife…
I can imagine chatting while we make dinner, going on walks, binge watching Netflix, playing video games while he strums at his guitar. I especially love thinking about just being in our home and quietly, mutually, counting our blessings. I can see him reaching high shelves and killing bugs. I can see me painting our wall clocks and building a blanket fort as an apology for being stuck up sometimes. I can’t imagine what it will feel like to write a new name instead of my family name. I can’t imagine what it will be like to not part ways at the end of every day and instead to share a house together. I can’t imagine what unknown horrors come from living with a boy. I can’t imagine how I will crush the mold of what he thinks living with a girl will be like.
I imagine us slow, clumsy and fumbling into one flesh. I see us as the happiest newbies to being newly weds ever. Patiently discovering new joy in loving one another. I can’t wait to learn more about obedience, respect, compassion, forgiveness and vulnerability from a man who I care for deeply. I might need it! It will also put to work all the practice I have had in patience, mercy, honesty and kindness. All of the things the Spirit has cultivated in me tenderly as I sought my heavenly Father will surely be tried by fire. I have no fear, because I have perfect love that I will always have access too.
People keep asking me what I am most looking forward to April 25th. I tell them that I imagine I might not remember the whirl of my wedding day in 10 years (another good reason I am grateful for a good photographer.) I won’t remember how many of my aunts came. I won’t remember the color of the cake or how well the bows were tied or remember how I felt about my hair. What I am looking forward to is not a ceremony or after party. I am not excited for a wedding, I am excited for a marriage. The reason people go through with the hassle of putting on weddings is because marriage is so great and so worth celebrating.
Being Jen & Chris for the rest of our lives brings a lot of questions and concerns. How will life change? We might be surprised at how little it does or how much it does. But we will never be alone in it. [[Photo by Aly Owen Photography.]]
I am excited to have all my friends and family near me. I am excited to be the center of attention for like a whole week. I am excited to see everyone dressed for celebration. I am excited to honor God in such a public manner. I am not excited to wear heels and hairspray all day, I am not excited for the standing, the waiting and dealing with all of the things that will inevitably go wrong. But I am excited that I will be in a marriage when all is said and done. Kind of like when I graduated. There was little thrill in wearing a funny hat and getting a piece of paper. There was all of the joy in going into the world to chase my goals and honor the Lord with all I had learned. There was so much joy in completing a journey with the family I had made at my university.
So in 100 days, I won’t know what to expect. But I won’t know what to expect with my husband. It won’t be anything I imagined. I am sure it will be better. Because obedience and sacrifice always lead to something more worthwhile than your dreams and imagination can summon. I have 100 days left to be Jennifer Cooper. That is exciting. So is the adventure in being a wife and taking an official partner to follow Christ and build his kingdom with. Waiting for something I can’t wrap my head around is lovely. Hope you enjoy it with me.
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One-hundred days and counting to who knows what. One-hundred days until I move, marry and jump into an adventure. One-hundred days til dancing, cake, food, family, frenzy and vows. One-hundred days til flowers, DJ’s and hair appointments. One-hundred days til I can unsubscribe from all the wedding websites I have joined and one-hundred days until I stop harassing people to RSVP. One-hundred days left for Jennifer Cooper.
My new favorite thing is to watch movie tailors for films coming out after April and in disgust say “Jennifer Cooper will never see that movie!” This is even more fun in the presents of friends who know I would probably love to see that movie. They will catch on. Jennifer Schriver will very happily go see it in my place. Haha. Can’t wait to meet her. I bet we’ll have a lot in common. Including how great we think Chris is.